I don’t even know how to start this post.
I’m so torn inside.
I can’t believe that my adventure in Beirut has come to an end..
But it has..for one reason or another..
I feel bad for not telling you sooner. You see, the truth is.. I’ve known that I wouldn’t be going back to Beirut for a while now. I suppose I just didn’t know how to tell you. Or maybe I was still in shock and didn’t really believe it myself? Who knows.
But the reality of the situation came down on me tonight because my return ticket to Beirut is booked for tomorrow..and I won’t be on that plane.
I cannot even begin to describe how much this past year and a half has meant to me..it is really beyond words. Lebanon (and the Lebanese people) has forever changed me as a person, and I can only hope that I left a tiny mark somehow, somewhere on Lebanon.
And this blog…this BLOG!!! has been one of the most meaningful things I’ve ever done in my life! EVER. And I am so thankful to Lebanon for inspiring me, and to YOU my readers for following me on this incredible journey! Knowing that you were reading is what kept me going time and time again. And believe you me, there were times I thought about giving up.
This blog means the world to me.. and always will. Always.
As for my future plans..well, I haven’t decided whether I’m going to remain in Miami, or try living in Trinidad for the first time in my life. Both of my parents are from there, and although I’ve been visiting Trinidad since I was a baby, I’ve never lived there.
And as for this blog..
I still have a few posts up my sleeve and I’m going to try and keep ‘This is Beirut’ going for as long as the posts remain relevant. Once I decide where I’m going to be based, that’s when I’ll determine the fate of this blog.. I’m not ready to completely let it go just yet.
I think what hurts me most about all of this is that I didn’t get a chance to say a proper goodbye.. to Beirut..to Lebanon..to all of the really great friends that I made along the way. I hope you can forgive me for that. I will miss you all..especially all of the amazing Lebanese people who made my time in Lebanon THAT much more memorable! Thank you!